20 was my ultimate fantasy and is proving to be as magical as I had dreamed about before. 

Looking back on my teenage years, I feel an empathy for the person I have been. Lolita had made it something visually hauntingly beautiful to remember too. Alot have changed from the fact that I have made peace with all my mistakes. It took an insanity that had a certain charm in it’s passionate crazyness. Maybe because I am no longer the person I was, I find it easier to understand alot of choices I did, without my judgements and the judgements of others I constantly carried with me back then.You somehow free your mind of strict ideals who seem so vain for the greatness of things you can do with your life that concern only you, and have nothing to do with what anyone ever had to say in highschool. You come quickly to shrugg off unecessary negativity from people you are not actually interested into, and you make your way easier towards making yourself a comfortable living. And I guess life from there is easily a fairytale when you decide to have it this way. I couldn’t be happier.

I realize clearly that I am this young for the last time, and I think taking alot of time becoming an adult will be a very pleasant experience.